I'm an Addict

It hit me last night that i am an addict.

I am addicted to food. To everything about food. The way it makes you feel when you eat it, the way you seek it for comfort, the way it makes you guilty when you eat something you shouldn't. Everything.
And then i am addicted to the other sides. the mental panics, the body image issues. the whole darn package. So last night i looked up what an eating disorder was. and well i'm pretty sure i have one.

According to the authors of Surviving an Eating Disorder, "feelings about work, school, relationships, day-to-day activities and one's experience of emotional well being are determined by what has or has not been eaten or by a number on a scale." (Siegel, Michaele, Brisman, Judith and Weinshel, Margot. Surviving an Eating Disorder. New York: Harper and Row Publishers. 1988.)

Well that is certainly me. So i thought i would start a blog and share my journey with - well mostly me (because i haven't told anyone about this site). Some how writing this down and publishing it - it makes it more real.